have finally sorted out a few problems at home, Allan is behaving again and acting like a civilised human being….
And the one good thing about arguing is making up afterwards
not sure how long for though lol
Andy came round for a coffee yesterday and we had a chat which helped put some things into perspective..
I was going to take the kids to the beach and park yesterday but it never happened, first the weather was against us, not exactly nice and hot for a day at the beach, and secondly, my car wouldn’t start because the battery was flat…
Ali has this wonderful habit of turning the interior light on his side. usually i check when i get out that its off but i must of forgotten to on Friday which is the last time i used my car….
i was supposed to pick dad up this morning to take him to his retinal screening for his diabetes. they put drops in the eyes and you cant see much for a few hour’s so he couldnt drive himself…..
Allan who promised to find the battery charger forgot last night so i called dad up this morning and told him so there was a slight change of plan…
he came round in his car and i used that. dropped him off at the doctors where the screening van was and then had a while to kill before picking him up….
I decided to take the boys to a park, i ended up driving past where i used to live years ago when the older kids were little and went to the park there…
it felt weird watching the boys play on the same stuff that 15 – 20 years ago i used to take Daniel, John and Sarah… It really hit home to me how much I miss them all …
it’s just made me hate this time of year even more….. i detest the months of June, July, August, September and October and of course Christmas….. so many anniversaries so many sad memories
I try not to dwell on things as half the year i would be in such a dark place………..
and dont want to go back there when i know there is light at the end of the tunnel…….
i must be 3/4 of the way to the end now…….
but its taken me years to get that far i refuse to go backwards…..
Im sure one day I will get to the light and out of this bloody tunnel