In the meantime I can dream


I Have been blogging here since May 2009 so for some strange reason I decided I needed  a change in the look. 

  I have used the same background since I first started………
So I have now gone from this


To what you see now……..
There are some things I would love to change in my life……..
Some in fact most are just dreams because they will never happen.

But This is one thing I can change…….
So here you are………….

But watch this space !!

Happy Bloggiversary or Bloggibirthday (what ever you prefer to call it)

Well today is the day. My blog’s birthday. four years old. Man, how it has flown.


I’ve never celebrated my blogs birthday before so I decided to do a whole big post with a nice little birthday image , maybe even a little present, (something I would love myself I think is in order because of course its as close as I will ever get to the real thing)
this year, for some reason, making a big deal out of it seems the most appropriate thing to do, It’s weird its one of the few things I started years ago that I still continue with.


Yes there are days, weeks where I don’t write but its mostly because life is getting in the way. Although I have to say I am enjoying browsing through some of the old posts to see what I’d like to post again. I haven’t done that before. There will be a couple more reposts over the next few days of posts I like and then it’s back to regular service. Hey, if there’s a post you remember that you like, let me know. But my repost for today is obviously going to be my first ever blog post


A lot has changed in the last 4 years and I think that’s what I tried to reflect in my blog over the years, my feelings, my sense of humour, My anger… Lets face it who else can I take it out on? and my life and soul.

The future is far less certain and recession is hitting pretty hard in some places. Like where I am. It’s funny that a huge amount of people are still in complete denial about that so I think that’s going to start to hit even harder in the near future. People are trying to keep going, trying not to admit that times are hard… Why keep up with the Jones? As long as we are happy, healthy and fed with a roof over our head that’s All I worry about in the end.


For me, I don’t know where I’ll be this time next year. Quite possibly, I’ll end up on the streets looking for work The boys are getting older and I’ve been lucky enough to be a stay at home mum since they were born. Forget what ever jobs I ever did in the past… All I have known for years is motherhood, I don’t know if it’s a skill that really translates to the streets but it’s worth a shot. “Banking, First Aid, Chef, Cleaner, Accountant, House keeper, Entertainments Manager? No? No? God bless you, sir,” and so on.


But it has actually been a really good 4 yrs since my Bloggibirthday I’ve been working hard on being a good mum and trying to do my best for the people I love and it’s something I think will contribute to possibly for the rest of my life. That’s a rare thing and I’m really thankful for it.


It has been a good 4 years. It has really!!


Well, here’s to another year. Thanks as always for dropping by my little blog. Who knew when I started writing about my life and other total rubbish years ago and ranting about almost anything that I’d find a little blog community of people I would call friends? If I’d known that, I probably would have tried to make those early postings a little better. Look back, they’re unbelievably crap. Well, not to worry, they served a purpose at the time. Helped me sort stuff out in my head.


If you’re reading this, I hope you’re doing well and thanks again.

Happy Birthday from me to me! I wish!!

Whoop Whoop!

Today I received a lovely package… A very smart   very green and shiny 🙂

What am I so excited about you ask

well a very lovely lady  Jodi whose blog I follow avidly  and who always has me in stitches laughing.

Anyway as I was saying she Promised me she would send me a copy of one of her books.  To my delight………. She has sent me a copy of all three of her books,

Each with a lovely inscription inside 🙂

Now I just need a quiet evening when  I can sit and relax and read.

I can’t wait  but once I have had a read I will let you know what the books are and how fantastic they are……. see how confidant I am in her writing 

And thank you so very much to Jodi  you are a star XX

One thing I will say though Is a big BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO  to snail mail between the states and uk…………. Seriously………… are you kidding it takes that long?

Keep Calm and Count my lucky Stars


To be honest I don’t follow that many blogs… Ok I follow about three… Anyway I read a post about Counting Blessings on a blog

“The idea is that you find a jar and each time you are blessed with something good, a nice comment, a fun day out, a reward or treat etc. you write it down on a piece of paper and stick it in the jar. Then at the end of the year you get all the pieces of paper out to remind you how blessed you truly are.” click on the link to get the full thing.

I do follow her and I thought that is so right..

I use my blog to vent.

I use it to rant, and I use it to regret a lot…

Now I am not a religious person.. Quite the opposite really so I guess I can’t count my blessings…….

However I do think there is a higher level of something out there so I will change it to count my lucky stars as I have been known  to use this phrase over the years…

And no I don’t have a jar… virtual or not.. so I think I will just have the tag… Count my lucky Stars ….

But I do need to blog about the positive side of things once in a while.. It really isn’t all bad… and I need to be able to remind myself when I am feeling down…..

So I’m going to do my own version of count my blessings…. Count my Lucky stars …

And today I will start it off …

Today I am actively counting my lucky starts…


I’m thankful for…

My Boys ~ Thanks for keeping me laughing and reminding me I wouldn’t be here with out you.. Im also thankful for the fact that despite everything Allan ain’t all that bad 🙄


When I’m talking bollocks because I have nothing really that I can blog about……… Problem Solved!



There are times when I really feel like updating my blog yet no matter how much I try to squeeze a post out of my head I still come up with nothing.

Those that know me know that I can come up with bollocks most of the time anyway.

The one reason why I always keep a notebook app on my phone is so wherever I go I can write down things that happen, events or other things that may just prop up.

Ideas usually come up when I’m drinking coffee in some cafe with the girls or even if I’m out and sitting on my own, especially when I can hear some interesting conversation around me,It’s not that I am nosey its just some people must want the whole world to overhear when they have a conversation.

Things pop into my head when I’m lining up in the local shop or waiting for my turn in Asda’s or in the queue for the cash machine, the dentist’s, or waiting in the local memorial hospital waiting usually for Ali’s eye appointments or at the hospital for his paediatric appointments to do with his autism.

Things slid through my mind and I think I could blog about that… this is why my blog is probably the most mish mash assorted blog you have ever seen…

one day I am ranting the next talking total bollocks… I do see things online that amuse me and I think oh I must mention about that. Or there are jokes I see and I think they have to be shared I know not everyone has the same sense of humour I have. Especially when I see things like a good joke or the hilarious ebay posting that I have blogged about in the past.. I just have to share……..


Or of course I need to rant and rave because I know if I did it in real life I would probably end up killing someone or being sectioned under the mental health act.

You should consider yourself lucky really because about 99% of what goes through my brain or I have jotted down on my trusty app never reaches the keyboard….. I never seem to find enough time to blog… even on days when I have nothing to do ……….


Anyway I have promised myself I will try to carry on and blog about the many various subjects that come to mind,  in the future
Just to carry on confusing you really and I was wondering what diversity of crap I could post about when I was surfing for something totally none related to blogging and I saw this bloggers list and thought

yeah what the hell I will give it a go.

It’s similar to the 30 day challenges but you just post in order at any time when you have no idea what to blog about………

or can’t blog about what you are really thinking and need some other idea’s instead

(in my case quite often)

oh and there are 50 things not 30…

This may take me years to finish… or 51 days you never know….. 😉


So here is the list……. And what you can expect at  any time in the future…..



1. Do you have any phobias? what thing do you fear most?


2. Describe your first date/first kiss. Hmm.. did you see stars or you just felt gross?


3. What is scariest experience you had?


4. What kind of games did you play as a kid?


5. What do you miss most about your childhood?


6. What kind of child where you? Shy? A bully? Popular? Loner? Stubborn? …


7. What gift would you give the person you “don’t like”


8. Who was your celebrity crush during your teens?


9. What outfit did you wear before that you swore you’d never wear again? If you have photos and the right amount of courage, then post it!


10. Do you have any regrets? Whats the biggest mistake you ever made?


12. What’s the weirdest/hardest/funniest job you ever had?


13. What’s the most embarrassing thing that happened to you?


14. What’s your wildest dream?


15. who is the worst neighbour you have ever had


16. Your dream gadgets..


17. Top 5 places you want to visit in your lifetime.


18. Top — movies you’d watched over and over again. OR if you are in the mood to be negative – movies you wish you didn’t watch.


19. Top 5/10 songs that makes you want to wish for ear plug..


20. List down your beauty product must-haves.


21. What’s inside your closet? Talk about your fashion style..


22. what season do you like best?


23. What’s always in your grocery trolley


24. List your favourite social network website


25. Have invisibility and teleportation at will or the ability to read minds and fly at will??


26. 5 things you want to change in yourself..


27. What was the last book you read?


28. Review any blog you find interesting.


29. Like eating out? Review a restaurant.


30. Talk about the last hotel you stayed in or holiday you had.


31. Review a product. Gadgets, beauty products, household products, whatever you fancy.


32. Review a TV show, a soap or a movie.


33. Talk about an excellent service you got..


34. Tell your readers how you got into blogging..


35. How did blogging change/influence you?


36. Have any special skills or hobbies?


37. What trait do you find the most annoying about people.


38. Check out the latest weird / odd news and talk about it.


39. Youtube, MetaCafe, Veoh etc offers a lot of interesting videos. Embed one and tell why you chose that one.


40. check the latest news and state your opinion about it.


41. Post something funny. A cartoon. A funny photo.Funny lists..


42. Find a quote. Share your thoughts.


43. What is the one word you can never remember how to spell…


44. What are the things you won’t write about in detail? Why you won’t blog about this topics?


Now is your chance to get back at them..I would suggest not naming them 😛 I’ve done this and somehow it got something off my chest.. lol!


45. Who was that teacher at school who made you almost made you pee in your pants.


46. The school bully who took pleasure in pulling your pigtails, or stealing your lunch money


47. That ugly boyfriend/girlfriend who left you for someone else.


48. the Nosiest neighbour you have ever had and did you actually do anything to wind them up


49. that obnoxious co-worker who keeps grabbing credit for your work.


50. What was the funniest/nastiest/most memorable prank you ever pulled on someone?


Facebook and Social Networking… How much time I spend now and before……

I am the first to admit I am addicted to face book,

At one point I had two accounts one for real people and the original one for gaming which I had about 2000 friends on ,

I stopped using it and in the end deactivated the account,
I have used and still have non active accounts with other social networks, MySpace, Tagged, Bebo,

Even a new one called Which while the concept is good, no one I know is interested in joining and I have tried convincing everyone I know, and its one of these ones where you must have friends there to interact with 😦
fantastic if you don’t play games though and just want social contact and to be fair its just starting up… check it out its well worth it… look for vampira … that’s me 🙂
Anyway back to social networking sites, you name them I’ve joined them, most of them I never really liked..
until I found Face book,
Ok I admit im a bit of a games addict and in my spare time i do tend to play the meaningless mind numbing games, such as Farmville, Cityville, Cafeworld, and Mafia War’s and occasionally Petworld there is a theme going on here they are all ZYNGA games, ok I do the odd one occasionally like scrabble and zuma blitz but not on a regular basis.
The thing is I am now on high enough levels for most of the “Z” games that I can leave them ticking over and pop on for 5 mins and that’s them sorted.
Now when I first started using FB more often I was on it constantly, every spare min I had I was opening up a browser and popping on fb to see whats going on, do some quest. ok I liked a lot of the blood series games and I think it’s when they went that I kind of lost interest in the gaming side of Facebook.
I detest Facebook chat… Maybe it’s because I’m an unsociable cow.
I think it’s because when I had it turned on every time I popped on with a few spare min’s to reply to a personal message from someone or to just have a quick look at what’s going on in FB world, the chat box would pop up and someone would be waffling on, not wanting to appear rude I would reply.. and then im stuck there.. the fact that my quick five min break had now taken half an hour talking to someone meant something else didn’t get done. Fb does have chat lists where you can make to make yourself available to people but how do you choose who to put in the want to talk to and the don’t want to talk to list…
I gave up in the end.. I turned it off for everyone. If I need to chat to someone live I will turn it on see if they are on-line and become one of those people who send annoying chat messages so they now have the choice on whether to ignore me or reply
I’m not just being unsociable on Facebook equally I don’t use MSN or YAHOO chat expect when I need to chat to someone.. maybe once every 6 months..
anyhow back to where I was ..
How much time do I spend on Facebook..

I would have thought about an hour or two a day.. some people said a lot more… so I have timed myself over a week writing down how long i have been on fb every day..
I was actually surprised..
I would say in the past I spent at least 4 hours a day on Facebook alone.
Timing every second I was on fb during the days.. The longest time spent on Facebook on any day was 22 mins.. the shortest was 6 and a half mins… and the average was about 10 mins
So am I a  Facebook addict ???
I would still say yes because I always pop on and off every day..
I’m nosey I like to see what my friends are up to!!

Edit:  Ironic really, The evening I posted this blog Debbie created a group a little secret society on facebook for us older mums to chat.. Im trying not to get drawn in to much because I dont want to spend hours on facebook but I have to say its hard work