The highs and low’s of this week

To say the last 7 days have been challenging would be an understatement.
I spend the majority of my time now driving the old man around to various appointment’s , shop’s and other places he either needs to go to or has to go to.
I get that he can’t get out now because he can’t drive
I get that he is lonely because he has NO friends but then neither did my mother, maybe is because they spent the majority of their life travelling around the world from one country to another and were never in one place long enough to make friends rather than acquaintances,
I get that I am the only person he has because quite frankly my older brother.  By 7 years,  is a total waste of space who has always made it clear even back to when my mother was alive that he and his wife (no kids ) as he put it to me when I last spoke to him “We Have a Life “.  so although he lives less than a mile from the old fart he doesn’t even call him never mind go and see him..  so that leaves me to do it all.
Apparently even with the work I do, the Volunteering, the kids, House, the pets, the Adult Education, and everything else… does not constitute anything as important as my brothers “life”
What my dad doesn’t get is that I can’t be with him from 8am or before If he had his way till 8 at night, when I say I have school runs and things to do he sulkslike a child..  so that brings me to the.  Low’s.
I live in a house with 3 adults in amber is over 21 now but still does fuck all, can’t even sort her washing or room out, I even posted a picture of her jeans with her draws still stuck inside them on facebook, ok she blocked me but the next morning her shorts with one leg inside out and another pair of jeans with socks stuck in the end were in the wash…. obviously nothing sinks in.
Next time everything goes straight in the bin..  I would say she should do her own washing but then I can see her buggering up my washing machine.. she cant even work out how to turn an oven on using the pilot light, so the washing machine is going to be way beyond her.  The advantage of her blocking me on facebook is the next time she leaves her knickers on the floor in the kitchen,  hair all over the bathroom, and bedroom a complete tip  (ok thats normal but when I ask her to do it I expect to be able to see carpet) as far as I can see now.. Everything Skanky  Is fair game.

Allan has done nothing lately apart from moan and do stuff for the scouts, so I lost it on Sunday. I will thrown away clothes etc that are still rolled together in the wash and Allan can start to pull his weight and put family first instead of everyone else .

All was helped better by some kind words from one friend (he may know who he is) and a visit around to see another friend and a pint and a half of wine, and a good old natter and whine.

I did walk there lol

The highs I received my certificate to say I had passed my teacher training course and that they want me to go in and take some exams on Friday well mock exams and if I pass them I can take my examination without having to do a years course ( personally I’m not holding my breath) but it will be nice to have a day without running him around even if it means I’m at the Adult education college instead.

We have our little visitor back this weekend as well so determined on how his trial run of the hike goes tonight depends on if I can go this weekend. Which was the cause of another argument because after last years hike and the problems we had with Ali this was the reason Allan was organising on this year and where does he choose, down country lanes near Milstead which has some very steep hills.

And here endeth  today’s rant

Footnote:  as I didn’t get to post this yesterday as I was on my phone and thought it had sent I now realise that you poor sods are going to get it all in one go today

So anyway Last night he did the hike and lo and behold… the walk was too dangerous and with hills to steep for beavers to use, in fact I was told that even the adults would find the terrain hard going.

So now the hike has been rearranged and they are going to do it locally and yes I can take the little one in the buggy so I will indeed be joining in..
Well hey I want my JOTT badge to sew on my blanket as well you know!

I so love being able to say   I FUCKING TOLD YOU SO!

Living in a box

While I was having fun on the internet last Friday night
*it’s not as bad as it sounds, well actually it may have been worse than it sounded, but not what you think… well yes it may have been what you probably thought but it wasn’t real honest, or was it?  No it couldn’t have been because Allan looked on his phone and was in hysterics, Just as well he knows me well.

Anyway……… the boys were sleeping in cardboard boxes!

They went on the cub crazy camp with Allan

PicMonkey Collage

We are still here and my son is 9


Yesterday was not only was  the prophesy of end of the world,  it was also Alex’s 9th Birthday.

He has been annoying the hell out of us playing his battle strikers and constantly has his new mp3 player stuck in his ears…

oh and we have been eating birthday cake. mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm cake…….

I on the other hand am now full of man flu which is not good especially considering the time of the year…..

My wrapping fairy came round yesterday while the boys were at school so everything is wrapped and bagged and ready,

some presents have already been given out and under the receiving persons tree..

Again I went overboard on the boys presents…….. the problem with buying stuff throughout the year is you forget what you have got or how much

Every year I say I am going to make a list and keep a record of what I have got for everyone, I have even said I would wrap it all up as I go along… Maybe next year

After all i didn’t even have to buy wrapping paper as I got loads on sale last year so I could have wrapped throughout the year after all,

I will be more organised.. I will keep a list… but I do think the boys will be happy..  they have no idea what they get for Christmas, I don’t believe in making Christmas lists.

I’m a mum I am their mum, I know the type of stuff they like…   I don’t believe in spoiling them during the year… if we go to a museum or somewhere they get a little souvenir such as a pencil and rubber or badge or patch to go on their blanket..  they get one item for their birthday… this year Alex got two because usually we take them out on a trip for their birthday but we couldn’t on Alex’s this year as he had school, every year before they usually break up the day before…  so instead of having what it cost to go out.. he got the extra present..  what he doesn’t know is it didn’t cost the £28.99 that he saw in argos but the £8.99 we paid on Amazon..  In fact I confess I have done most of my christmas shopping from the internet throughout the year when I have seen some good deals.   Sorry high streets of the country..

Thanks to the 99p shop I have now got a nice new Christmas dinner service.. without having to use the paper plates I usually use….. this I can put away and it can be used year after year…..

As I type the boys are at the Christmas pantomime in the local theatre with the cubs and beavers… Allan has gone along as he is an Occasional Helper with the scouts… soon to be leader…… will go into more detail about that when I get the time as we are both helping out the beavers and cubs a lot now..
After the pantomime we are heading off to take the boys to see Santa……  hopefully pics to follow tomorrow if I have time to post just to really bore you all…….

Anyway…  Time for me to go and get ready and blow my streaming nose before Allan gets back.
Oh and one more thing……..

See I told you I knew that the world wasn’t going to end yesterday
After All, Marty McFly travelled to 2015 😉


Why did I join social network sites?

Primarily to see why people thought it was so great. I had heard about these web sites where people converged to share themselves and other assorted things (like Myspace, etc). Initially I did not think too much of it, I did set up a myspace account but at the time, I had a no friends, except a few people from the radio station I worked at , I still have it… Do I use it? No… In fact I bet the tumble weeds are rolling through as I type… I think I also have accounts with bebo… tagged, and most of the other networking sites at the time. I never really used them but I did have accounts set up



I Have a twitter account and have 128 following me but I think I have only ever tweeted about 12 times… my followers are people who follow those I follow… confused… Hell I am!


Just over 5 years ago well 14th October 2007 to be exact I first joined Facebook, so I did not think it was that exciting, much less interesting. Then little by little, I stumbled across friends who were using it, women from a forum I frequented and slowly my friend list expanded, I joined professional groups, and began sharing information, gaming and I became hooked!

To the point where I had over 4000 friends on my Facebook account… it was getting silly i could spend hours a day playing games……… knighthood, mob wars and such were the best.. Then I found I was missing notifications from real friends because the gamers were taking over… So I opened another Facebook account on 5th July 2008


This time for the real people in my life and close on-line friends… even that friends list has now reached 500 but yes that is people I interact with or went to school with… 2 or 3 ex boyfriends… 2 or 3 ex lovers, family well Allan’s family… etc.

I did play one or two games on this account such as farmville but nowadays I don’t play any games at all. I do post silly amusing probably offensive pictures… and interact with friends. I deactivated my original account a couple of years ago so only have the one facebook account… well actually that’s not true… I have two Facebook accounts… I have another one I opened because i was having problems with mine getting messages and Facebook advised me to deactivate my account for at least 24 hours… but being Admin on a few groups and pages meant I may be booted off the groups as Admin so I needed to create a back up account.. make myself Admin on those… just to reinstate the real me when I activated my account again.. I did this I handed over the Admin reins to the new account… and had two friends on it… then people somehow started finding me and sending me requests that’s no good I didn’t want to use this account for that… so I blocked them. And created a fictitious name so people wouldn’t know it was me,

I have two close friends on it.. and that’s it… I have left the Admin rights on it so if I ever got locked out or blocked from my main Facebook account at least I know I have back up access.

I’m quite unsociable now as I have my chat only turned on for two people as well on facebook. I just didn’t have the time to reply to everyone who kept popping up for a chat.




I have hooked up with so many wonderful friends from my past and I love getting back in touch with them. I also love being able to share ideas and other things within my professional groups, as well.

So here I am nearly 50 and I can definitely say Facebook, not just for kids.

See ya there!

I give up I really do! I can do nothing right these last few days!

Have you ever tried to help someone and it totally backfired?
I feel like that everything I have done this week has gone tit’s up!

First one person who I shall call *MK* those who know her will know why I have used *MK*,  who is continuously on about how much sweet stuff *MK* eats or energy drinks she has and who is always moaning about headaches………. was saying yet again how she needed an energy drink (bearing in mind she has done nothing but post pictures and say how much she loves her energy drinks ) and I said to *MK* just be a touch careful and it may be worth getting her blood sugars tested  (as I know how easy it is for diabetes to creep up on you) and that she had three lovely kids who needed their mum and *MK* went in to her usual childish rant which seems to happen quite often when something is said that she takes personally … now if I had called *MK* a fat  lazy and someone who does nothing and lets her other half do it all when it comes to dealing with the kids and who does nothing but stuff her face full of munch as she calls it all the time while not letting the kids or even her other half have it  and then says how expensive to go on a diet… I could understand it… mind you all of that is true to a certain extent anyway
well what do you know *MK* removed me from her facebook friend list….  I do know how hard it is to diet but I also know how bad to much sugar can make you feel  and all her symptoms I would say were down to her diet.. I know I am in a pissed off mood but I didnt say it to her to be nasty I said it to her because I know how these things can creep up on you…   she is young has kids….  I am 50  I know for a fat that I didn’t have high cholesterol and wasn’t a diabetic at 22  If I was I doubt I would be here now. 

  Like I said Have you ever tried to help someone and it totally backfired? 

Anyway the day did get better, I meet Mary in Asda’s and we decided to have a coffee while we are there and I get the phone call from Allan asking how long I am going to be because he wants to go up the town and check out the phone upgrades,  so he has the hump for a while.  then while we are out  my phone text alert goes and………………..

 I get a message from Vickie saying the dongle is not working…   go back in time. she is now in a hostel and I lent her the laptop and Jo lent Vickie her dongle… Jo had taken her sim card out so I had bought a new sim for the dongle… big mistake… turns out the sim i had bought was the wrong one…  yes phone ones did used to work but since they moved over to the micro sim the old phone sims no longer work and you had to get a new internet one..   sadly Vickie had put some money on it and of course it’s not working , can totally understand why she was gutted…   but I was fuming with the three shop she went to… apart from telling her the sim card was fake… like fuck it was as I bought it from a reputable mobile shop and the dongle was fucked… well we know it wasn’t fucked as it’s not that long since its been in use and not only that it loaded up on the laptop…  it was just the wrong sim…. instead of telling her that… they tried selling her a new dongle for £30…  and wouldn’t give her the £25 she had put on the sim,  bastards…..
hopefully it’s sorted now as Jo spent nearly two hours taking to three head office and they have agreed if we buy a new internet sim (yes still available in the old size) for the dongle then they will transfer the money over and credit the new sim. I have my fingers crossed because we can’t sort this out until at least Monday when Jo gets paid as we are all skint at the moment.
I feel bad because this is all my fault for buying the wrong sim for the dongle..

Then its time to take Ali and Alex to beavers and cubs… Jo wants to take Adam along so he can join so we both go and Adam joins then we nip to asda’s for 3/4 hour to kill time,  until  its time to get Adam and Ali and drop Alex at cubs…(beavers and cubs are held up the school) we then go home, Jo takes Adam in and I get Ali in by which time Allan is back .. we now have until 7.30 to collect Alex as cubs are longer than beavers……..
I get Alex and they tell me that next we he is going to be inaugurated next week which I know is going to piss Ali off when Alex gets his scarf and Ali doesn’t…  but and here is the clincher… Cubs have their summer camp and they have said Alex could go…. bugger more expense…… ok only £20 but we have Ali’s birthday coming up and school trip to pay for.. plus save up for when we go away.  and of course the beavers camp was before Ali started so it’s not as if he can go… we said we would think about it but Alex went into one so the day started off with someone throwing a paddy *MK* and ended with Alex throwing a paddy……  oh what fun
I go onto face book once I have got the boys to bed and on my wall it shows *MK* having another rant at someone on her status… (because someone I know had commented on it and it still showed up as she had just removed me and not blocked me) I read it … thought FFS I really don’t need this , with any luck one day someone is going to lay her out and it’s not worth me doing time for it. I have a mega headache and really can’t be arsed anymore..
so I Blocked her…… I feel so much better for that.. I never have to see her rants again and yes she does rant at everyone on a regular basis.

Next Friday should be interesting as we are all supposed to be meeting up for a coffee… Me, Gladys, Mary, Terri and *MK* bet she dont come lol

Then we have Friday:
The plan was I go shopping, I come back.. Allan and I go out for a meal at the Jenny wren… we get the two courses for two people for £9  I have some vouchers for buy one get one free drinks so should be a cheap lunch lol
no when we eventually get there he decided he wants the proper meal. oh and the combo starter and desert… £30 odd later meal over…….. Next time he can take me lol
We get home and I still have a pounding headache from the day before…… we end up falling asleep on the sofa’s  and end up waking up this morning

Allan is Bowls today and I still haven’t sewn up the hem on his white trousers  so he moans… well tough  wear your other trousers……….

I go upstairs and the boys have been in my bedroom been in my jewellery box and lost some bits , broken a bracelet  we have a go at them for that tell them to keep out of our room and not to touch anything that is not theirs and we go back in later on to find they had got something else out… I feel like I am banging my head against a brick wall,  
I am starting to wonder what will work, we take away stuff… we throw away stuff , we confine them to their room, we take away the tv lead,   we stop treats… short of  my dads suggestion   Take the belt to them it never hurt you…. well actually it did… but then I did learn my lesson and never did it again.. however father if I did that now I would have social services banging on my door and putting them in care and I would be arrested as a child beater………  I give up……
If anything else goes wrong today I will just punch someone.  over the age of 18 who is not going to contact the police 🙄

Roll on Sunday….  oh hang on my dad is over tomorrow for dinner……………. Cancel that……..

That Moment of Sheer Panic………….. No Internet!!

The boys are being their usual Geeky Nurdy selves, ….. and they were talking about fossils in stones the other day and I mentioned that somewhere up in the loft I had a rock tumbler…. then they were determined to try it out, so up in the attic I went and I found not only the rock tumbler but a bag of rocks, stones and minerals as well… as far as they were concerned I had hit the jackpot.. Now they wanted to try it out for themselves but we didn’t seem to have much grit and stuff………. (also If im honest I couldn’t remember what we needed) So….

Yesterday I made a trip to Broadstairs to Gemset to get some grits for the rock tumbler… Now I have had this rock Tumbler since about 1972 when I was about 10ish…… So maybe I was a slight geek after all… So that’s where the boys must get it from!!


It was slightly overcast but quite warm (yes still no need for heavy coats and its the end of October.. how messed up is the weather?)
so donned with just light jackets we got in the car with Grandad to go to Broadstairs…… We got just out of Sittingbourne when I realised that I hadn’t got my glasses with me. Now while I admit that im blind as a bat as far as reading is concerned so always need glasses, I don’t admit to needing them all the time for general seeing……. However My distance glasses are reaction lenses.. and I do have very light-sensitive eyes….. Hence the reason I usually wear them when I’m out…. Ok yes they help me see as well… It’s not that everything is blurry when I don’t have them but everything is so much clearer when I do 😆

The problem is by the time we got to Broadsairs .. gone to Gemset, grabbed some lunch the sun had come out…….. and that’s when I started to get a headache… by the time we got home it had turned into a headache from hell……… rendering me totally useless to mankind……. Well more useless than usual anyway 😆 Only solution… Dose up and try to sleep it off…
I rest on the sofa until Allan comes home… then I can doze……. He takes Alex to Karate…. I get Ali to bed and that’s it I can now relax and sleep.. which I do to a certain extent…….. he gets back, we get Alex to bed and decide to watch the Blues Brothers film.. (classic)
I get half way through it and turn over and sleep……… I wake up it’s about 1.30am…..Allan is on the pc so I suggest we go to bed…
We go to sleep and then at about 3am I wake up… with a really dry throat…… I come downstairs.. Make a coffee and while I’m drinking it I think ok I will catch up on everything on Freegle and the most important thing Facebook 😆

WHAT!!! No Internet…………. Panic sets in……… I check Allan’s Pc on the other side of the room.. Nope no internet there either……. It’s now 3.39am and it’s still down… I’m typing this in word ready to post…. when I can………
The plan is……… Finish Coffee… it’s now 4.30am go to bed and hope that by the time I get up It will be back on……..
Apart from my desperation for Internet .. the boys will go mad if they can’t play their games…………. Who am I kidding…….I need the internet……. I need my pc……… My friends live in it……. rofpmsl Why Have we got no internet………….. How dare they…….. And I can’t even call or contact anyway to find out if theirs is working ok because of course……… who the fuck else is up at 4.40am in the morning………… 😦